I’m honestly so sick and tired of being alive.
My therapist told me something meaningful yesterday, she said “It’s important to remember that when you’re depressed you have to nurse yourself and be extra gentle towards yourself. Just like an athlete wouldn’t break an ankle then force themselves to run that ankle. They rest as it heals and do not think “I am a failed athelete” they think, “right now something isn’t working so i’ll take care of myself until it does.“
Just like a broken bone, depression can change the way your daily life plays out, and pushing yourself too hard and getting frustrated when you don’t feel better is just like trying to run on that broken ankle and getting frustrated when it doesn’t heal.
Today I cried
When I killed a spider
Because I realized
Maybe he deserved to live
More than I did
And who was I
To take this life
Unsuspecting
While I’m still here
Suffering
-unplannedpoetry
